It happened...they started Kindergarten

Today was the big day! The kids started kindergarten. And I, well I was filled with mixed emotions. People expected me to be hanging from the rafters, to be out celebrating. But honestly, I've been a hot mess dealing with all of this. I struggled all through the last half of preschool with the decision of sending them half day or full day. Ultimately, we chose full day. And I finally feel good about that choice. Is it easy? No. But I think it's what's best for them. For two years they went to preschool, everyday from 8 am - 10:30. That is how long half day Kindergarten is. I felt like they wouldn't be advancing since they were already use to going 2 1/2 hours.

We stopped naps after the first day of summer. They did fine. Really the biggest adjustment for that was....me. I was use to having that 2 hours during the day to relax and sometimes, nap. But honestly we got use to it quickly. We quickly had a routine going. And the summer turned out to be pretty good.

Our lives have changed now. This is the biggest thing that has happened since they were born. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't sad. Sure, my family thinks, "What!?" They are the ones who get to hear when I'm struggling, screaming, cussing, crying, etc. But isn't that what family is for? :) Absolutely there was a time or 10 when I cussed. And sure, there was a time or 20 when I cried because I felt overwhelmed and just wanted to have 5 minutes to poop alone. But I think (hope) that is normal. I still love my kids to the moon and back. Nate & I fought so hard to have these 3 babies and for them to be healthy and for them to stay on this earth with us.

It hurts to think that this is it for us. Our babies are no longer babies. They are now at the beginning of their 12 years of school. It seems weird without them here with me during the day. I worried today thinking, "Will someone help them open their lunch? Will the teacher's hear them if they are hurt? Will they remember to go pee on their own? Will they make friends easily? Will they miss each other since they are separated?" I realize that this will be never ending.

I know we all will adjust. I can't tell you how excited they were to go today. That made me smile and made it a tad bit easier. Of course I still cried. But knowing that they couldn't wait to get to school made it a little less chaotic. And I know I will enjoy my peace and quiet at times, but I will ALWAYS miss them madly!

Jonah in his class

Trying to find his name

Jasper walking in to his class

When I walked out, I peeked back in and Jasper had put his head on his table. Sniff, sniff

Isabel making her entrance. Check out the boy giving her a looksy!

She looks a little nervous here (luckily, our preacher's wife is her teacher. Yay me...it sure takes a load off)

Hanging her things

And this is after school. Luckily, Nate took the day off so he could help me take them. They came home and crashed on the couch.